Pushing 60: Feed The Kid Inside of You

Mar 15
3 min read

❤️ Hello From My Heart ❤️

Healing childhood trauma has been a life-long

journey for me.

I had carried this pain for decades and am very happy to say, the healing journey has progressed nicely.

I started to "feed the kid" inside of me.

I say this phrase to acknowledge "The Kid",

that little girl's voice inside of me that I used to ignore. The pain, humiliation and anger from abuse I had suppressed for so long needed addressing.

So, first I started acknowledging this through

ART Therapy a.k.a.

Accelerated Resolution Therapy.

It's a healing modality where a therapist asks questions and directs you to use eye movements that activates the parasympathetic glands to release trapped emotions in the body.

...This actually WORKED for me

Besides learning I had been previously Codependent 25 years ago, this ART therapy literally blew my mind wide open.

I normally don't cry.

I have been conditioned as a child to be stoic and keep on moving,

not to feel.

To keep smiling, no matter what.

After all, the saying goes

"fake it till you make it".

Well, I can speak from experience that can only last for so long.

It was a coping mechanism that in truth, did help me move on from situations that could have broken me.

Eventually, I had to deal with things I never wanted to revisit again.

When I had my second ART session, my therapist told me to envision myself walking on a bridge, and in the middle of this bridge, letting go of all the heavy weight I'd been pulling all of my life.

I visualized letting go of a heavy cart with chains and when I mentally released this and started walking towards the other side of the bridge, I finally felt relief and felt twitching in my upper right chest, near my shoulder.

I was clearing the "issues in my tissues".

After the twitching, I wasn't crying.

I WAS BAWLING.

...and you know what?

It felt AWESOME 😊

For the first time in a long while, I released what was long suppressed and finally heard that little girl's voice that had called out to me to release these emotions for so many decades.

Here's a book I've recommended in a previous blog post. Karen K. Truman wrote

"Feelings Buried Alive Never Die".

It's about trapped emotions in our bodies that when lie dormant for years and decades, creates diseases in our bodies.

I have personally experienced this for myself.

These long-suppressed emotions like anger turned into cancer and other autoimmune issues in my body.

I'm happy to say the Uterine Cancer I previously had is long gone since 2010.

I'm still a work in progress but getting better each and every day.

I'm still working on the autoimmune stuff but, I have no doubt these issues in my tissues will release, too.

Healing takes a little time and a lot of patience.

Another book which I consider a must-read about hidden/suppressed feelings and is easier to digest is

"You Can Heal Your Life" by Louise L. Hays

It makes the same points as the book above, just in simpler terms. It was because of this book that I discovered cancer is emotionally an anger disease and it's placement tells you what reason the anger is there for.